24 January 2011

some people are a lot smarter than i am....

okay, a lot of people. but specifically, the girl who said the following at Church on Sunday sure knows something i don't. or that maybe i had just kind of forgotten....

If we knew we couldn't fail, what would we do?


well, darn! i don't know about you, but if if knew i couldn't fail i think i'd try a lot more things. and i would work a lot harder. i think i would take a lot more risks. and her point was... that's faith. not knowing that we can't fail, but trying anyway. believing that we can do things, even when they're hard or scary. i need to remember that, because i get scared a lot. i mean, yeah, i'm scared of the dark and stuff, but mostly i'm really afraid of failing at things that are important. things that mean a lot to me. and because of that fear sometimes i talk myself out of things. and i guess that's just as bad as failing, really.

interestingly enough, as i have been thinking about this the past couple of days, i ran across this blog post by a lovely woman i respect very much who has something to say about confidence and overcoming our fears (with the help of Maria from The Sound of Music). it's funny how once you start thinking about something it seems to turn up everywhere. i think Heaven Father knows that i need a lot of repetition before things really sink into this brain of mine. and hopefully i will start to get it.

whether it is something as simple as trying to learn to play the guitar or to show interest in someone new or if it's trying to stand up to the injustices i see in the world, i hope i will start to live in such a way that i don't make decisions based on the fear of what might happen i fail, but what if i succeed. because faith allows me to believe that i will always succeed when i am doing the right things, in the right way, at the right time. and even when i fail, because of the atonement, i will be okay. even better than okay. and i will probably learn a lot!

and i know i am slow and i won't become brave and faithful all at once.
but it is something to work towards.

"Fear not to do good my sons, for whatsoever ye sow, that shall ye also reap; therefore, if ye sow good ye shall also reap good for your reward."
Doctrine and Covenants 6:33


1 comment:

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